Graduation Day

Friday was really special for me.  I had my last physical therapy appointment. It was graduation day!!

After 2 years of physical therapy, pain, injections, doctor appointments, medications, pain creams, TENS units (an electronic device that’s used to help manage pain), ultrasounds, and exercises….  I’m done. 😀 😀

It’s been a LONG two years.  It has drastically changed my life, and my view on medicine/doctors. I’ve learned that the general view of our advanced medical knowledge is extremely far-fetched and exaggerated.  Medicine isn’t near what it’s cracked up to be.  If you have an ailment/injury, and you go to the doctor/physical therapist, there’s a high chance of hearing “I don’t know” – a lot. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard this over the past 2 years.  It’s been said by orthopedic surgeons (who spend a minimum of 8 years in medical study), physical therapists, PT assistants, hospital personnel, etc.  I’ve lost count of how often I’ve heard it.

My life, in general, for the past two years has been all medical appointments. And now I’m done with it. Sure, my shoulder still hurts, and it’s still sore. There are certain things that I still can’t do. I know that my shoulder will never be the same as it was before I injured it, and there are things that I won’t be able to do again. However, it’s liveable. I can deal with it. If the pain becomes too bad, I know how to conquer it. I know what exercises to do to release some pressure. And I know Who to ask for help. My latest physical therapist is also always there to give me advice. By the way, he’s the only one who out of everyone I’ve seen who hasn’t said “I don’t know”.

I have seen so many different medical people during the past two years, that it’s unbelievable. I went into this with complete doctor-phobia. I remember feeling extremely nervous (almost to the point of throwing up) just for my first appointment with my orthopedic surgeon. Yet now I’m comfortable around doctors. Maybe it’s because I went through every procedure they could think of and had available for my injury. Physical therapy, closed MRI’s, dye injections, cortisone injections, pain patches, ultra sounds, and surgery – you name it, I went through it.

At the end of it all, I only started actually healing once I went to a different, non-traditional, physical therapist. All the science and meds in the world didn’t do it. It was slow, gentle hands. Willingness to work through problems slowly and not just push through it. I came to intensely dislike the phrase, “No pain, no gain”. That is one of THE most deceitful things I’ve ever heard. Pain is your body’s warning sign, and you can’t just push through it. You need to identify bad pain and good pain, get to the root of the problem, and work SLOWLY through it. Patience is the key – also something I’ve had to learn through this process.

In conclusion, I still don’t know why God allowed me to go through these two years of pain, depression, and fear, but I do know that He did have a reason for it, and one day I will know what it was. These two years have had a great impact on my life, and if for nothing else, I can better relate with others who are suffering.  I can’t say that my faith took leaps and bounds through this journey.  I want to; I wish I could.  But it would be a lie to say that it did.

The truth is, these past 2 years have been severe testing of my faith.  I have failed time after time again.  I’ve made huge mistakes.  I’ve gone through depressive stages.  Several times it seemed like my prayers were just bouncing off the sky.  However, I’ve come to the realization that He never left me.  He was always there for me.  And I need to remember that, even when it doesn’t seem like He’s there. God seems distant at times, but He’s always there. Always.

This graduation day was very special to me.  It has brought back a lot of memories – good and bad.  It just feels so weird not to have another appointment scheduled.  My life for the past 2 years has pretty much been medical appointments.  And now…. it’s done.  Over all, I’m pretty happy.  I feel like I’ve accomplished something of great significance – something so great that I can’t even comprehend now…and that most people probably won’t understand.  One day, I’ll look back and see it.  One day.


By the way, my latest physical therapist’s name is David Fukumoto, and his email is:, in case you’re interested.  I highly recommend him.


16 thoughts on “Graduation Day

  1. This is beyond awesome 😀 I’m so happy for you!!!! I know how hard it is to bounce around from doctor to doctor (I’m still doing that right now…), and it’s really nice when you finally know what’s going on and you’re on the road to recovery. I read this post like 3 times and I’m pretty sure I was grinning like an idiot the whole time. I really need to be more conscious of my weirdness.

    And nothing’s worse than being in a closed MRI for almost half an hour, and then having contrast pumped into your veins. Blechhhh.

    • Thanks!!! I’m sure you know exactly what it feels like – twins. 🙂 You’ve been through the same thing, err, at least very similar. haha I like grinning idiots. 😉 At least when Picco looks like one, because you’re always awesome.

      Actually I was in the MRI for like an hour…so that was pretty nerve-wracking. Blechhhh is right!! 😀


  2. Yay! That’s awesome 🙂 I’m glad you are through with all that! Since I only recently started reading your blog, what is it that injured your shoulder (?) in the first place?

    • Thanks! Me too! haha yeah you just started reading my blog and I took like a month off of blogging. Sorry! Well, I’m sure Picco could tell you ALL about it…. 😉 But I’ll brief you.

      I was arm wrestling with my older brother…and ’nuff said. haha We actually still don’t know what was injured. We just know what happened to my shoulder *because* of the injury, and had that fixed through surgery… and then we had to have my shoulder fixed from the surgery because surgery just made it worse… It’s complicated. However, basically we still don’t know what happened except that I had a ton of pain and *everything* (except for narcotic pain drugs :P) made it worse… Gotta love doctors.

      hope that helped!!


  3. Consider me briefed and ready to roll (why people say they are ready roll and then they jump in a car is beyond me. Do they think that they are tires and will be rolling? hmm).

    Aw, that sucks 😦 But I’m glad you are better!

    • 😀 haha I like you’re thinking. I personally never thought about that, but it’s true that it doesn’t make sense!

      Yeah…. me too! Thanks for commenting, Marie!!


  4. While it is true that doctors don’t always know what is wrong, I tink that its only fair to judge them over the fact that we are all human(in other words, IMPERFECT). It can also depend on what you had. I know that you had something very rare for kids at your age in your shoulder. And sometimes its hard to help someone when you don’t know fully what is wrong with them. It’s also difficult for them because some patients don’t follow instructions at all. In other words, they are in a difficult position, they want to help, but some people don’t react well to what they do. And medical technology is great… for some things(that, and Flagstaff is a small town, we can’t afford a whole lot of technology). But, technology can be a detrement. Maybe you had to much technology, and you just needed a simple treatment.
    Anyway, glad you are all done!

    • I heartily agree! 🙂 I had so many factors going against me here… Doctors are definitely very well educated and equipped to help lots of people, no doubt. I have to say, I don’t think too highly of *my* orthopedic doctor, but I have lots of respect for doctors in general. (I hope I didn’t sound the opposite in this post! If so, I apologize. I was kind of overwhelmed by memories while I was writing it)

      Exactly; I just needed someone who was patient and willing to gently work with my shoulder for several months.

      Me too! 🙂 Thanks for commenting, RAD! 😀


  5. Hey that’s really great!

    I find your commentary on “no pain, no gain” interesting. Your stance makes some sense when applied to physical pain…
    you didn’t mean that for all pain tho did you?
    Just curious.

    • Thanks!

      I mainly meant that you shouldn’t just push through physical pain, and assume it’s for the better when you start having *more* pain. This can (and most of the time does) increase the injury.

      When it comes to just being sore from working out, or something like that, it definitely has to get worse before it gets better. So, I guess it doesn’t apply to all pain, but it definitely applies to pain from injuries or sicknesses.

      Hope that helps, and thanks for commenting!


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