A little bit of this…a little bit of that….

Hi everyone!  This is going to be a very long post in which I talk about everything that’s on my mind lately, from sorrow to overwhelming joy, to favorite quotes, to awesome light shows, to thoughts on being a daddy’s girl.  There’s just been so much I’ve been thinking about that I want to share with you, so I figured, why not put it all together in one gigantic post??  I hope you enjoy!

 

God’s grace is sufficient.  I’m going to start out with raw honesty.  I’ve been here in Colorado for exactly two months today.  This day two months ago was a very, very tragic one for me—and not simply because I was leaving.  There are reasons I haven’t spoken about on the blog, which I probably will eventually, but two months ago, I was heartbroken.  I still cry when I think of it, and some days are just so hard.  

But God.

God has raised me up on wings like eagles, He has held my hand, He has guided me.  He has filled me with an overwhelming joy and strength that I never possibly imagined before.  He has sustained me.  He is sufficient.

Through these past two months, God had grown me in ways I didn’t know were possible.  It has been very painful at times, yet so exciting and mind-blowing at others.  I’m so amazed with what God has done in my life while I’ve been here.  He has used me for purposes that absolutely leave me speechless and teary-eyed with awe.  How great is our God!

 

The power of words.  This goes along with this first point, but…never EVER doubt what God can do with something as seemingly simple as words.  He has totally blown me away by using just a few of my words in a conversation for a HUGE purpose that I never would have dreamed of.  I am overwhelmed, ecstatic and SO SO excited about what He’s doing.  So in awe and filled with joy. 🙂 🙂

 

Being a daddy’s girl.  This is something else I’ve learned while I’ve been gone.  Being a daddy’s girl is a GOOD thing.  I am proud and incredibly grateful to be a daddy’s girl.  So many girls in this world do not have fathers that care for them, and it’s tragic.  Why is being a daddy’s girl viewed in such a negative light by adults in the “real world”?  It’s as if that’s a bad thing.  I’m here to tell you it is not.  Just because I’m a daddy’s girl doesn’t mean that he doesn’t respect my choices as an adult.  It doesn’t mean that he keeps me under his thumb 24/7.  It doesn’t mean that I live under  a rock and I don’t know what’s going on in the world.  I do know.  And my dad respects my choices. He loves me and supports me, and is always, ALWAYS there when I need him.  My dad may be more strict than most people are comfortable with nowadays, but you know what?  He is a God-fearing man with a fierce love for his family, trying to raise them in a way that glorifies the Lord.  And I have the absolute utmost respect for him.  I am so thankful to have a father who DOES care about what I’m doing and what I think about certain topics and how I’m getting along.  A father who will willingly spend an hour talking on the phone with me.  Yes, more often than not, I talk with my dad about decisions before I make them.  But it’s not because I need his “permission”—it’s because he has a wealth of knowledge and experience that I can draw on.  Why shouldn’t I ask for his advice when he clearly knows more than I do?

Being a daddy’s girl is a privilege.  Don’t let anyone think differently.  As if to solidify that concept, I recently heard “Butterfly Kisses” by Bob Carlisle.  I know it’s an older song, and I’ve heard it many times before, but I cried when listening to it this time.  Perhaps because I’ve truly come to appreciate how much my dad loves me while I’ve been gone.  Funny how people’s cynicism and negativity toward my home life can do that.  It has grown my love for my dad, not shaken it.   I am blessed beyond words to have a father who loves me like this and views me as precious.  My heart breaks for those girls who don’t have a father like mine.  And no amount of pressure or mockery from society/relatives will change that fact.

 

My Grandma’s birthday.  I am so excited that I get to celebrate my Grandma’s birthday with her tomorrow!  What an honor to be here to help make this day fabulous for her.  I think I’ve only been with my Grandma maybe a handful of times on her birthday in the past, so I’m very thankful to be here this year.  I plan on making a nice breakfast, her favorite cake, and probably taking her out for dinner.  I think we’ll be visiting some friends as well, which will be fun.  What a blessing!

 

{Working from home…RANT ALERT.}  What is it with people and assuming that those who work from the computer don’t really work?  That they don’t have “real” jobs?  Like, seriously.  Do you know how tiring it is to stare at a computer screen for 8 hours a day, 5-6 days a week?  It might not be physical work, but it is mental work and extremely fatiguing.  Yes, I can work anywhere I have internet connection—which means that YES I can work in my pajamas if I’m not feeling well.  Regardless of that fact, it’s still work, it’s still a job, and it still brings in a paycheck.  It just frustrates me when people act like I don’t have a real job, or I’m not really working.  This stereotype needs to end.

 

Excitement of Autumn.  I love summer, so I was very sad when it was over.  However, it soon started looking like fall, and next thing I knew, I was excited again.  Hot cocoa, hot apple cider, pumpkins, scented candles, and boots were at the top of my excitement list, mostly.  Oh and pumpkin-ish coffees, chilly movie days, and hanging out with friends in the crisp air.  But you know what else I’m super excited for?  Football.

Would you have even thought of me as one who gets excited for football?  I never would have.  In the past, I couldn’t care less about football.  But recently, I’ve found that I really love coming home from church and getting the game on.  But the thing is, I never watch the game.  Yet, I love this time of year.  I think I finally figured out why—because football season means parties (with food and fun), and extra reading time for me while everyone else is watching the T.V. haha!  See, I’m not so into football as I let on. 😉

However, live games are an entirely different story.  It’s pretty much becoming a fall tradition for my family to go to a Lumberjack football game.  For those of you who don’t know, the Lumberjacks are the NAU (Northern Arizona University) football team, right in Flagstaff.  They are seriously a great team (I’ve NEVER seen them lose), and it’s so much fun to go to a live game.

So, I’m totally looking forward to going home this Friday and heading to the football field.  I’m also looking forward to seeing my friends again, being in a city with a Starbucks, going to the movies, and driving an automatic car.  Haha

 

A mini-Michael Jackson.  You guys know how much I love Michael Jackson.  So it shouldn’t come as a huge surprise that I’m crazily impressed by this little boy.  Oh my goodness…words cant expressed how amazed I am.  He’s so talented—and that’s an understatement!

 

Vlogging.  I’m hoping to do another vlog soon.  We’ll see.  I have three ideas for videos, so now I just need to take the time to sit down and do it.

 

A Favorite Quote.  This is possibly my favorite line from Star Wars.  Strangely enough, it’s more relevant today than ever.

 

Anxiety.  Even with my excitement of going home, I’m also a little nervous.  This is simply due to some memories I left behind (directly linked to the heartbreaking day I mentioned earlier).  I’m just not sure if I’m ready to face those memories yet.  I know God will help me, as He has so wonderfully helped me these past two months, but I’m still a bit anxious.

 

Folk dancing!  I’m dying to do the Virginia Reel again.  It’s been years since I’ve done this dance (or any folk dancing, for that matter), but watching this video reminds me of how much fun it is.

 

Sentence thieves.  Click here to see a Facebook post regarding why people need to stop stealing my lines.  This happened with “Let It Go” as well.  Seriously.  I wrote those before they became popular, and now I have to change them.  Haha  #TheStruggleIsReal

 

Halloween light shows.  These are amazing!  I’m not a fan of Halloween, but I have to admit…these are impressive.

And of course, “Thriller.” 😄

 

Conclusion.  This was a super long post on sorrow, joy, awe, rants, quotes, dancing, and music.  I just want to leave you with these verses:

“For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.”  -Hebrew 4:12

“Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”  Hebrews 13:5b

-Tialla ♥

 

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6 thoughts on “A little bit of this…a little bit of that….

  1. Hi Tialla! Beautiful post and I don’t think it’s really that long 😉 It’s great reading about all the realisations you have made and the affirmations you have received at heart 🙂 And as you go back I pray you are strengthened like never before and that God’s sufficiency gets you through! Whatever it is, the storm has passed and everything is going to be alright! Blessings dear!

    • Thank you, my dear friend! I greatly appreciate your prayers, and your kind words mean so much to me. Also, I’m very glad you weren’t overwhelmed by the length of my post. 🙂

      -Tia ♥

  2. Every girl should have a father like you described. I did. He’s been gone for 15 years and I miss him daily. I’m proud to be a daddy’s girl too. His words still come back to me and still guide me. You never outgrow your dad or his words of love.

  3. Hey lady, I’m not sure what happened 2 months ago, but I’m so glad you have found solace in God. A scripture that I held close to my heart during one of my hardest times was “For I am the LORD, your God, Who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, ‘do not fear, I will help you’.” It’s from Isaiah 41:13 and I love the reminder that God is ALWAYS there. Holding my hand. Reminding me to trust Him and not to be afraid. Anyway, just wanted to share that with you!

    I love that you have such a close relationship with your dad. I pray for that for my own children someday. Well, and that they’ll be close to me too, obviously. But a strong father figure is SO important in children’s development and the way they view themselves. There are so many fatherless children out there who desperately need that. It’s a big part of why we want to adopt.

    I haven’t faced any criticism from it, but I definitely do a lot of work from home as far as post processing and editing photos for my photography business. It IS exhausting to stare at a screen all day. That’s how it was yesterday and today for me. I’m excited to spend tomorrow with the kids I nanny so I’ll have a break from the computer. It’s hard when you look at the screen so long that everything starts to get fuzzy. Especially when I’m trying to edit photos in the most pleasing possible way. I need to be able to see! haha!

    I hope your trip home goes well!

    • Thank you SO much Rach! I am once again amazed by how God works, because this whole time during the past two months, God has laid that very verse on my heart and comforted it with me. How awesome that you’re comforted and encouraged by the same verse! Thank you for bringing it up…I needed that reminder today.

      Yes, a mother’s love is uber important, but a father’s influence and love, in my opinion, has a bit more of an impact on a child’s life. From reading your blog, I am absolutely certain that your future children will have some of the best parents ever. 🙂

      So glad you understand about staring at a computer screen all day! It really is tiring. It’s good to know that you haven’t faced any criticism, though. I hope it stays that way!

      -Tia

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